HASAY, OK I've Procrastinated Enough

Rather then write here today, I baked(I will not post the food porn), I cleaned the counters, I cleaned the doors to the basement, and the cupboard doors in my kitchen. I'm not losing, I'm stuck again. I lost 4.4 in september, but no more after that. I just need .2 for this week to get to 20lbs "again". The "baby" is now 4.5yrs old. It shouldn't be this hard to get this weight off. I know I was so determined the first time I lost. This time it's harder so much harder.

I've been reading everyone's updates, I've seen some awesome progress, and some great attitude. Me? today? my attitude is in the crapper! I've been walking with MJ around the block, he is in his pink Trike and I'm pushing him with a broom stick so that things go Faster! The pace of a 4.5yrold will get me no where, but a 4.5yrold on a Trike being pushed with a broomstick? now it feels like we're doing something. I've asked for help to keep me motivated from my family. I've asked them to eat the healthy food vs the stuff they really want. I want my boys to grow up healthy but they have their dad's motabolism, they look at food and lose weight, I look at food and gain. The big part of this is that "I" have to do it. So I will keep walking and running after that Trike and Away from the Bear! (yes he's back 4miles from here 2 bears were spotted this morning, you can tell it's their garbage pick up day, tomorrow is ours!)

Meals have been better, more veggies are in the house and less snacking. I've bought their lunch snacks all packaged up. They are a bit bummed that I'm not baking more. They want me to make cinnamon Buns, Apple muffins, cookies and even chocolate chip pancakes. I want none of those things to be in my house. If it's packed I wont touch it. A package of mini chocolate chip cookies? not a problem because they are for the kids lunches, and I only buy enough to do so many days. A package of cheese strings? it's theirs,a 500g chunk of cheese? uh now we've got problems.

I made whole wheat pizza this weekend, spicy beef stirfry and salads, those will work. I've journaled for 4wks straight this month, I bite it a write it so the October goal will be to keep that going, and work on the liquids and less fluff. The fluff will fluff you up everytime!

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